Long time, no see, eh? My apologies for the delay in posting. I’ve been skulking around the periphery of my social media outlets, but my blog posts have been wanting as of late.
It’s not that there’s been nothing to write about -with this group, there’s ALWAYS something to write about- but the reality has been that although the material has been thick, the time has been short. Way too short.
It happens this time of year… by the time the last few weeks of school roll around, I’m running on empty. Things start to slip. You know. Things like:
- Running late to soccer practice. Every.Single. Time.
- Muttering the words, “Damn! He/she forgot ___ at home!” on the drive to school. Every. Single. Day.
- Buying new socks instead of attempting to whiten the socks that are grey.. from MY KITCHEN FLOOR.
- Misplacing library books that are so overdue that my picture is on the librarian’s “Most Wanted” list.
- Going to bed too late, waking up too late, and… rinse and repeat. Again. And again.
- Mentally composing my mom resignation letter each night to the sight of spilled drinks, toddler wailing, and cat whining…
- Informing The Captain of said resignation when he calls to check in at dinner time… from his car. Alone. On a coffee break. Every.Single.Night.
- Forgetting to pay my site’s yearly fee, and not even noticing for a week that it wasn’t even up… (oops!)
In short, there’s been too much to do, and too little ME.
June is always challenging. By the end of the school year, I find myself crawling toward the finish line. It’s usually busy, but this year seems to be even busier than usual. I’m aware that there are times when the demands will outweigh the supply (me), but I don’t handle the sense of falling short well. I hate feeling like I’m not keeping up, but it inevitably happens at times.
Here’s the deal, folks. I’ve been frustrated. And being stalled at Frustration Station makes me grumpy. And a grumpy Six Pack Mommy is not a funny one. But… part of why I blog is not only to share the fun, insane parts of our life, but the gritty reality of it. And the reality is, having a big family is not an easy task. It can be all-consuming. It can be draining. It can be painful, and overwhelming, and plain tedious sometimes.
In order to keep things running smoothly here, there are times when I need to circle the wagons and focus on the sagging home/family aspects. But putting aside things that I want to do in favor of things that I need to do is still really, really hard.
Is it a mom thing? Maybe. It’s that feeling of wanting it all. I want to be able to balance ALL OF IT. The home, the bills, the kids, the housecleaning, the marriage, the extended family, the friends, the blog, the hobbies.
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But unfortunately, it looks less like above, and more like THIS:
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It’s important to make time for yourself, and to not become a martyr on the altar of family. And I get that, I do. But day to day, I’m still struggling to strike a balance between the two.
I love blogging, so much. But I found that in recent weeks, my full attention was almost entirely on the blogging, and its social media support, and not on the family that I blog about. In essence, it was basically:
“Not now, kiddo, I’m too busy writing about our life to participate in it.”
The good news is, I’ve regrouped. I’ve caught up on a lot of neglected areas; now that the school year is coming to an end, our outside commitments have slowed down.
The tougher aspect… climbing back uphill. It’s frustrating to have made progress with my writing, only to have needed to put it aside for a time. With six kids and a husband that basically works two jobs, the demands on me often seem endless. I’m still trying to perfect the alchemy.
But are there stories to tell? Of course. Can’t wait….!
